Bumpy Roads Ahead®
Never in my imigination before, i would end up being an interior designer, until the predicted disastrous spm result came out. The result is not too bad for my standard, maybe not bad at all actually, providing my lifestyle in the past 1 month prior to the examination as the evidence. But it very much changed my life, my principles, my thinking, and most of all, my ambition!
It all began with me as a standard 2 student in the Sekolah Kebangsaan Sungai Gelugor, the oldest malay school in SEA. It’s my ultimate goal to be a pilot, a Jumbo Jet Pilot. Everyday i keep dreaming and dreaming, it’ll be a reality. Besides, I still sketching and drawing for fun, and for some pocket money as well!! Whoever remember me used to sell some of the drawings to my fellow schoolmates. A good A3 picture cost 30cents, and others 20 and even 50cents! Of course the Jumbo Jet is the most expensive! For a normal standard 2 boy, that was quite a business. That lifestyle continues for about 3-4 years until i left primary school for secondary.
The seconday school lifestyle really took me by surprise. I was slowly drifting in a new dimension. I live a normal day- to- day life as I was before, but later in 1996 when I was admitted to the hostel, that WAS the turning point! The joy, the fun of staying away from the families that used to monitor my life is hard to explain. It was something that you wish happened a long time ago. I was slowly drifting away again from the real purpose of going to school. I don’t want to study everyday anymore, I don’t want to be prepared for the next test, I just want to have fun with my newfound friends and play football everyday!! There’s no Jumbo Jet anymore, there’s no great sceneries to live for anymore. It was all enjoy and enjoy.
But lucky enough, I still have friends who tought an awful lot about life and the struggle to be independant. The enjoyment won’t last, my friends will have their own lives after this, am I going to lean on them forever? It’s all about survival, self- belief. Sometimes I was just thinking what am I going to do after this? To be a pilot? Hell no! I was never good Physics and Mathematics, let alone Add Math!! The dream of a 5 year old kid is just a fantasy in the past. Then I started to realise what I have achieved in my 11 years in school?? Just plain fantasy and lots of bullshit. But, I still have the skill and the passion for art, in general. I still can draw some decent pictures, just need some good polishing and practice. So I started doing some graphic design for our school t- shirt and selling some stickers. It’s pretty much the same as my primary school business, but with more dedication and dicipline, something that lacks in me. Although the time I realize what potential the SPM certificate could do for my future career, it was already too late to turn back, but a C3 in the art studies does give me a boost of life. The 11 years of dreaming and dreaming did produce result, that I can really draw! I have to do something with this God- given natural talent, I have to. I’ve found myself that day, it’s me in 1987, a 5 year old boy who loves drawings and play around with pencil and paper……
